5th September 2020
This week I have had more time to think since my orthopaedic appointment was cancelled. That was irritating when it happened,
but I was not angry as I was able to speak to someone and make sure I
was kept in the loop. What is really infuriating me more is that in
2019 I was in a really bad place with the pain I was in and all the
other side effects it caused.
I was having a real struggle with the physiologist I was seeing, who
didn't really grasp the problems I had, and my blood sugars were
really high because of my weight gain. A GP referred me to see a
dietician in the July and I finally got to see them in October. At
last I felt like someone was listening to me and with their support I
managed to get a grip on my eating. I went there every two weeks and
I was answerable to someone. This carried on until the end of
February this year and I had lost two stones all together. Then, as I
have said before, lockdown happened. I had to but my own scales and
carry on by myself.
What has made me feel angry is that not once in the whole six months has
anyone rang and asked me how I am getting on. When I started seeing
them I was in such a bad place and they helped me start to put things
right. Start is the word, but when I had to, I did it by myself. I
have since lost a further three and a half stone in those six months.
I did it myself, so why am I really angry? I suppose it's because I
feel let down by something I thought I depended on. I think I am
dealing with a real lesson here. Don't let feelings spoil what you
have done and be proud of your achievements. It's sad to think that
maybe there is someone out there that feels like me and feels let
down and really needed that support and hopefully now they will get
it.
As for me, I have learnt so much myself and I will carry on doing
that, because only I can do it. If anyone can finally conquer my
weight issues it's me and if I can help anyone else along the way I
will.
Until next time,
Jackie
xx
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